Of mornings and songs.

The last minute London trip was Ken & Nich's surprise for the holidays -- and the keywords here are... last minute.

Gosh, they're lucky to have a London trip as a surprise. How I wished I could join them!

Talked to Mr Nicholas Chew Ken Min, who was online, this morning at about 9.15am (Singapore time)! And he told me it was around 2.20am in London la.

And he was so "proud" of it that he was explaining a whole bunch of crap about Daylight Saving Time. God knows what the heck that system is for? Time's just time what, still need to save what time! (Though I wished I could turn back time)

You can call me dumb for not being able to comprehend such a theory. But can't help it, I don't know any pangsai about it man!

But hey, here's the catch, what's he doing online sooo early in the morning when the other half of him is sleeping? *Winks*

Oh well, obviously, the very FIRST question he asked me after conversing with him for more than 5 minutes was: "You've been skating a lot?"

Lol, as expected of him la ah. Anyway, kinda miss these great friends after not seeing them for more than a week already, and very used to skating/sliding with them. I'm sure Amirul kinda agrees with me too. (;

Anyhow, I wish to compose a song just like Amirul! Unfortunately, I just don't get the inspiration to write. He claimed that all I have to do is to let the words flow within me, but what I think is that, I just lack the focus to write!

I really wanna write this song I have in mind, and I know I will and I can! (:

Boring holidays.

You know, it's really weird when during school time, you'll start ranting that you wished the holidays were here.

But on the other hand, when we are in the midst of our desired holidays, we'd start whining about how boring the holidays are -- with nothing to do, nowhere to go, or else, bored of doing the same old thing at home over and over again.

But I'm kinda glad that I've finally done 70-80% of my Chemistry worksheets, though I'm not sure what Amath homework I have, and I don't really wanna give a damn about it.

Speaking of homework, there's Chemistry test on the first day school reopens, and there's definitely bonus marks for our Prelims if we do well for it. Gosh... I so want the marks!

Unfortunately, I can hardly find any motivation to study. And it's all because I want to enjoy my holidays before hell starts after this week!

Oh well... (:

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Lifehouse's new album is out! And I think this album, is a lot better than the previous.



Here's an extract from the song "Storm":

If I could just see you, everything will be alright.
If I see you, the darkness will turn to light .

And I will walk on water,
And you will catch me if I fall.
And I will get lost into your eyes,
And everything will be alright.

I know everything is alright, everything's alright.

I'm still missing the times spent at chalet. Everything about it.

And that very beautiful morning...

4Chalet in A1120.

3 days 2 nights at Pasir Ris Downtown East, and it was magnificent and enjoyable! Afterall, I simply love 4C. (:

Throughout the 3 days there, all of us had our utmost fun, and it's impossible to describe every detail in words. Alright, having said that, I'll try to summarise everything as short as possible.

Most importantly, pictures speak louder than words.

Day One:
1. Checked in at Pasir Ris Downtown East. Some of us played mahjong and the guys and me went "guitar-crazy" (as quoted by Xiaoxuan), while waiting for the rest to come.
2. Then came our barbecue! (I kept eating rice 'cause nobody cooked food for me. Lol!)
3. All of us decided not to sleep, so some of us started chatting about ghosts, demons, religion and whats-not, while the others played mahjong.
4. Had super early breakfast at 4am la!
5. By the time we went to watch the sunrise, many were already K.O.ed. Only Rachel, Ruiwen, Xiaoxuan, Weirong, Limpon and me went to wait for the sun to rise. However, Xiaoxuan and Limpon left earlier, leaving behind Rachel, Ruiwen and me to catch the sunrise. Unfortunately, clouds were covering the sun, but nevertheless, the morning was chilly and beautiful! (:
6. When Rachel, Ruiwen and me returned back to the chalet, ALL of us were K.O.ed and really went to sleep (though for 2 hours).
7. Rachel and me had a draw for our bets, 'cause we slept at the same time. Haha! Neither of us K.O. before the other.

Day Two:
1. We woke up and some continued with mahjong game while some played to guitar.
2. Then went to Escape together with Rachel, Lenny, Ruiwen, Yap Seng, and Limpon. Had hell lots of fun there (screaming)! Lol.
3. Waited for Xiangyu to come, then had dinner and went back to chalet to watch movie.
4. It was really siao watching The Exorcist with the 4Cians la. From a horror movie, we made it into a horror-comedy. But it was really freaky when the possessed person climbed down the stairs with blood in the mouth. FREAKY!
5. Then we celebrated Xiangyu's birthday, and continued with the movie marathon.
6. Had one hell of an UNO game with Diniy, and Fiza. Whack each other like crazy sia -- but by sabo-ing!
7. The Exorcist 2 was boring and not as good as its predecessor, so I fell asleep halfway, all the way to the next morning.

Day Three:
1. This one is funny. I woke up when I heard Biondi playing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. LOL! Then Weirong, Terence Tay and Xiaoxuan told me they strummed the guitar so loud, but I didn't wake up! And I continued sleeping like nobody's business.
2. Then we watched TV and some played mahjong for the rest of the day, while Yongjie continued sleeping and sleeping until about an hour before we checked out la!
3. Yeah, then checked out at 12pm.

That should be all for the chalet!

Thinking of it now, I really wished the chalet was longer, maybe, at least a week. I'm really missing the times spent during the stay. The sunrise, the battle against fatigue, the aircon, the bed, the TV, the fun, the laughter, the cakes, the freedom, and most importantly the people (proudly my 4Cians)!

Those are the times that I'll definitely sweep my mind clean just to contain these memories.

When I reached home after the whole chalet, I started to think about after our O'Levels. And I really don't want to separate from my class. ):

Then there came Xiaoxuan's suggestion -- let's have 4C chalet every year, with Rod as our professional photographer! (:

Ahh, beautiful times!

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Here are the pictures, though not many. I'm still waiting for Rod to send me the rest after he has processed them, especially the pictures for day one.


Morning at 6.15am


Morning at around 6.45am


Morning at 7am.


Morning at 7.15am


Morning at about 7.30am. Rachel took this photo, and I really like it! ^^

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That should be all for the photos, will post the rest up once I get them.

I'll never forget the times in A1120, and I've never regretted being part of 4Chalet! :D Thanks a thousand, a million to the greatest guys.

Thanks a whole lot, 4Chalet! (:

Peer pressure.

My mind's in a total mess.

I totally anticipated this peer pressure if I was going to consider rejecting TJC's DSA.

I knew people will say things here and there, but no matter what, I still find Sheep's question "Would you regret it if you don't go to TJC?" the most constructive. And then here comes Amirul's comment "And Zhiyi says he may want to reject the DSA to TJC. Lol, then why go for it in the first place!"

And here's my answer:
1) I really wanna be part of TJCSBand and that was why I went for the audition.
2) The institution of my choice is tilted more towards Polytechnic than JC (though I'm still considering VERY VERY hard on the course I should take).

WTF right?

Yes, some might think it's damn bloody greedy of me to want to join both a Polytechnic and TJCSBand. Some might think that, since I've made it through the DSA so easily, why the f*** do I still want to reject it at this time?! Some might even think that I'm playing a fool out of the DSA, and making a fool out of myself.

And I definitely know that if I reject the DSA, it'll be a total waste! That's because I love music, and I know my seniors and friends believe I have the potential... to be frank.

At the same time, I also have to consider my future -- this refers to in which insitution will I be able to cope and adapt well, and have comfort learning.

But hey look, I'm not stupid here. From the time I posted my previous entry, I had already anticipated such things to happen. Not that I'm against people's opinions or suggestions, but look, do you think they're constructive?

Hmm... so maybe that's why I'm having a f***ing hard time on deciding whether I should accept or reject the DSA.

Oh well, maybe I shouldn't have told anyone about me being accepted. Seems to be my f***ing fault.

Or maybe like what Amirul said, I shouldn't have gone for the audition at all?

P.S. But anyway, thanks for ALL the advice and comments given by Linda, TJCian, Sheep, Fafa, and Amirul. I'll make sure I'll take all of them into consideration.

Stress.

With the extremely high number of readers Amirul has for his blog, it'll be in no time everyone knows that I've made through TJCBand's auditions. Despite this, one thing that I'm gonna be dead damn sure about is that I'm never gonna gloat over a small success like this.

Instead, I'm feeling very stressed up because of it.

I know it's the holidays, and it's very weird of me to say that I'm feel damn f***ing stressed up now. But let's face reality, I am, and will be, facing quite a great deal of pressure for 20 odd days, 'cause basically, I have these number of days to decide whether to carry on with the DSA, or reject it.

I have a very important decision to make.

Now, the pros and cons of rejecting and accepting are clashing too much. I have a bloody difficult time deciding which path I should go. So let me be very frank about it here.

1. I've been accepted through DSA, and once I make it through the interview, all I have to do is work damn hard and get below 20 -- or better, below 10 -- for my L1R5 for my Prelims/O'Levels (no matter what also have to work damn hard), and I'm so-called automatically in TJC.

2. I've made it through, and moreover, I'm in one of the good JC bands. It'll be a waste if I drop out of it now.

3. I'm standing on a thin line between going to JC, or going to Poly. This is my very, very worrying problem for now.

4. "To go TJC or not?" This is one heck of a question. I know life in there is stressful, but many have told me with the people there, I should be able to cope.

5. Peer pressure. If I were to drop out of DSA, people might say things like: "It's such a waste la, you've made it through and you want to drop out, how foolish are you? Many can't wait to be in your place, you know?" or anything along this line. But I know, I have to be myself, 'cause it's my future, and not theirs.

Gosh, my future lies in my hands. No doubt.

Oh well... I really wished someone great could advise me!

Please, please, my help! >.<

Music don't go well with nervousness.

I am very sure everyone had heard about this saying "Nothing ventured"... then followed by "Nothing gained". Indeed, it has been true for many who have heard it, and believed in it.

For me, I'm sure I had fulfilled the former, but about the latter, the result is really clouded in mist.

Well, went together with Jerald, Gabriel, Vera, Hilma, and Linda for TJC Symphonic Band's audition, meeting Jonathan, Kenneth and Nicholas there -- not forgetting the rest of the batch who went there to support us (Zhafir, Cherie, Cheryl, Jiajun, Peixuan and Jolene).

Thanks guys for the support, but things happened as I had expected... kinda screwed up badly during the audition.

All because of one thing -- nervousness.

I couldn't pitch the freakin' notes while playing Fnugg 'cause:
1. I haven't been practising on my instrument for a month plus, compromising the quality of my sound.
2. The 1st valve was f**ked up which affected my pitching the higher octave notes.

Then came the scales and sight-reading... one word sums up the audition -- screwed.

Oh well, like Hanafi said, I did my best! All I can do is to hope for the best, if fate doesn't wants me to be in the band, then too bad. Nevertheless, in or out, I still must start working hard for my Prelims already.

And ultimately, O' Levels!

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Anyway, gotta thank these group of people for the wishings on my birthday (in alphabetical order).

Thanks to:
1) AMIRUL (So sorry!), Asheem, Fiza, Hilma, Huanting, Imma, Jolene, Kenneth & Nicholas, Kwara, Linda, Michelle Aw, Pearl jie-jie, Rachel, Shawn, Steph, Syjia, Waikit, Xiangyu, and Zikai for the birthday wishings.

2) Rachel, Xiangyu, Natasha and Lenny for the RipCurl wallet!

3) Kenneth & Nicholas (together with Michelle Aw) for the sleeveless shirt. I so totally expected it! Haha!

3) The batch for the birthday bash... for the water bottle bath and pillar la! Lol.

4) And last but not least, my parents for celebrating my birthday with me!

Pardon me if I had unintentionally forgotten anyone's name here. But anyway, appreciate all these "thoughts that count"! ((:

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That's all for today... off to play already!

Goodnight, Godspeed, and happy holidays! (: