Amazing

You're my everything
The reason I sing
You've taken me under Your wings
And closer to You I draw near

My life's in Your hands
My heart beats
In Your perfect love
My lips shall praise You
Adore You
And lifting my love I will sing

You're amazing
Never changing
Always with me
Enthroned within my soul
Overflowing
My heart offers
The deepest of honour and worship

Amazing

Jesus, You're so amazing.
For having my life changed.
Giving me a purpose in my once sinful life.
For having died on the cross, washing all my sins with your blood.

God, You're amazing.
Forgiving all my sins, giving me a new life.
Thank You for all that You have given.
That I can now use them to their fullest potential.

I love my craft, I love this God-given skill.
Use it to glorify Him, serve Him, love and worship Him.
Better than anything else in this world.
The best purpose of this entire world, simply 'cause it's God-given.

You're so amazing, it's beyond words to say.
Your presence so great, that eyes can never see.
Your love and mercy, no death can ever break.
Let me sing Your praise, You're so amazing.

Plans? Purposes?

Haha I'm very tired already.. it was a long (BUT powerful!) day YESTERDAY (it's 1.30am in the morning already), and the hide-and-seek game we all played totally drained my energy. Hahaha.

But anyway, I'm still gonna use a bit of this strength to blog since I suddenly have something to say, and at the same time waiting for Bx to discuss about something! Haha.

Anyway, I suddenly thought that my entire life was really perfectly planned and organised by God!

I was actually thinking that, if I had stayed near SengKang with Bx, I'd be taking bus home with Jacky, Bx, and many many other people! But then.. next came to my mind was that if I stayed near/at SengKang, I'd be studying in a school in SengKang!

Then I thought if that was the case, would I actually start learning the guitar when I'm in Sec2?

Then, would I be loving music as much as I am even after Sec2?

And if I was studying in a school in SengKang, would I be who I am now, loving the guitar, worshipping God with it, giving God His glory through my craft? Would I progress as far as I did if I was brought up in a totally different environment?

Well, we never know what God as in store for us! Let's just think simply, cause it makes things easier for us, and just have faith that God really has a destiny for all our lives!

Haha we can never know God's mind, or else we'd be God!

Humans by ourselves - by our fleshly selves - have much pride. We think that as long as we do well in life, we don't need God.

Some people do actually know that they are leading a purposeless life, and they complain, but they have never intended to find out what can truly be their purpose in life!

Sometimes it's so weird you know, that these people are so unhappy about their lives, but when friends go to them to suggest a PERFECT way out for them, they just are so unreluctant to try it out, and rather continue living in their life of depression, delusion, and materialism!

Pride. We call this pride. It is human pride that will cause the downfall of humans. I promise you, and I assure you.

Humans, by nature, are so caught up with ourselves that we tend to not look at things beyond the material and reality. I'm not saying that we should sit down everyday, do nothing and not being realistic, and daydream about things that might never happen!

But seriously, we look too much into the face value of life. We look at the front cover, but we never look into the hearts.

And that's why, many have not found their true purpose!

I'm so happy that ever since I went to church, I have found a purpose in my life. It is not a purpose that I'm running for on the material outside, but it is something that contains more depth, and I'm running for a greater value! I'm running for a value that is not about face, fame, money or status - but the values of FAITH, HOPE and LOVE.

These are values that this worldly society can never touch upon UNLESS their pride is taken down - unless people dare to take that step to humble themselves and accept a God so unreachable, yet so true, so tangible in our everyday lives.

Fight harder!

And then I asked myself... "Will everything that I've gone through so far go down to waste?"

But I've gone far, I've stayed strong, I've clinged on so tightly.. am I starting to lose grip because of those few emotions? Are emotions worth me losing my grip? Are they that strong that they take control over my will? Are they overpowering me to diverse myself away from God?

Are they worth in exchange for all that I've done for my leaders, friends, and most importantly, God?

And then the question comes: Why am I in church?

If I were to lose my grip, my momentum, I'll be back to scratch! Then what's the point, when I'm climbing up to do more things for God! Why should I be pulling myself back just because of some stupid thoughts and emotions?

No, I can't. I've stayed strong.. Now, I must stay EVEN stronger. I can't be weak when everyone else is strong! I must and will become as strong as my leaders, as powerful as pastors.

I must never lose my dreams! If I lose my focus in being in church, start losing my dreams and visions on why I'm in church, just because of some irritating weeds at the back of my brain, then it's so not worth it!

Are they worth clinging on to, compared to God-given dreams? Dumb thoughts are NOT godly at all - not even the slightest bit!

I can fight back.. I can! I'm strong, I'm resilient against struggles. I can pull through.

I can pull through everything and anything as long as I have Christ, who strengthens me!

I shall seek revelation.

Amen.

Free time wor!

Haha, okay, I shall do some blogging since I have some time before I go to church!

CEG outing was fun last night! Went to ChomChom for dinner, and ate till I was really really full! I'm surely and rapidly growing fatter.. Hahaha. The best part was after dinner man - and that is hanging out!

I just love hanging out man.. You know that feeling when you sit down and chat, take photos, laugh at each other's jokes and funny gestures - basically, enjoying the company!

Give me techs, give me cars and whatever other robotic stuff, I'll say I'll prefer the company of my friends and family (: And last but not least, Jesus!

Okay.. I really dunno what I can say. Oh ya! Can't wait for steamboat with Ivan later on, it's so gonna be fun, enjoyable, memorable!

And yes, CEG tomorrow! It's been sooo long since we last had one, just miss it! And Counter-Strike after CEG with Ivan... wooohooo!

Sad that Ivan's going off to NS.. Nelson too ): But I believe we're gonna make this one of the best days of their lives! (:

Slowly, but surely.

Breakthrough, breakthrough!

Wa, today was awesome! CG with Fe, WeeKiat, Dee, JiaJia, and Terence was simply amazing. It was really my very first time I enjoyed CG sooo much. Finally, we all were pulling down the presence of God together.

It was just so amazing! The level of peace felt was simply.. whoosh, whole new level man! (:

God spoke to me, and it was totally refreshing, rejuvenating, recharging, and revitalising! God is continually guiding and helping us grow even more, but before that, we must seek Him, and really push ourselves and tab into His presence!

It's just so amazing.. God told me that: By ourselves, no matter the circumstances or situation, we must always continue to have the will to remain strong in the Spirit, or even better, be stronger!

I guess this was what Ivan shared about.. to be strong on our own, self-dependant, and not always relying people who are stronger and our leaders.

This must definitely be God. It's the season of growth! (:

Sometimes, we can't help it when there's a sudden restructure, or a sudden switch in direction. But one thing that helps is that, we must stay fixed in our direction towards God - our direction not being affected by all the circumstances and situations.

It is a helpline that works 100% well!

Just like how Dee put it, it is a test of our own strength through ordeals and obstacles.

We should, and will, have more of such CGs - powerful atmosphere that allows God to speak to us. We must be strong antennas to receive God's word! (:

Haha, then after CG hangout in WeeKiat's house and fun fun fun! And, and, and... WeeKiat's grandma (if I'm not wrong) cooks super well! Great fish, great food, great company! (:

I know I've been using this word for many times in this post already.. but TODAY WAS SIMPLY AMAZING! ((:

Back!

Woah, this blog post is rare... like RARE! Hahaha.

It has been so long since I last posted on this blog; and it's also been quite long since I went around reading people's blogs. I think I should start including blogging as part of my workplan also! Haha.

I can't believe it! I haven't been blogging for... one, two, close to 2 months already! Goodness. Even Darren or Fe blogs more than me! I ought to be spanked in the butt. Hahaha, sorry just spouting some nonsense to relief my mind over matters.

Anyway, enough of nonsense... I wonder what's on my mind? Haha, I don't know. So weird...

It's 1.51AM now, and am gonna have dinner with Ivan and the others at 8PM later! I can't wait man, have been wanting to talk to Ivan since dunno when. Haha. Something inside just keeps telling me that it's gonna be a great time spent with Ivan! (:

I love playing the guitar.. it's so good (no, I'm not saying I'm good. Hahaha)! Seriously, I don't think I have a voice. I think the guitar has taken over my voicebox as my vocals, and my voice as taken up the role as supporting actor to my main actor - the guitar!

Truthfully, I'm loving my guitar, I'm loving the sound, I'm loving this craft that God has given me! To others it might seem as if I'm just playing notes, strumming chords, plucking strings... but no, to me, it's more than that.

As I play my guitar, deep in my heart every single strum represents my heartbeat, and every sound projected is a cry to God. You know.. I gotta tell you all how I feel playing the guitar is to me!

I so feel peaceful whenever I play on my guitar (:

While I listen to music, when I close my eyes, put all focus on my ears, I really can hear the heartbeat of the music. Haha. I'm not saying the human heartbeat kind of heartbeat, but really, the move, the feel, the essence, the emotions and effort put inside the music.

Simply amazing.. the craft to play and to hear. Praise the Lord for such a skill given to me! (:

I love the present, but I very well miss much of the past, and am very excited for the future too. See, in just a sentence, I have three different feelings. That's why.. it feels weird. Haha.

Many things have happened (not bad ones though), so many thoughts running through my mind, so many things to say.. don't think I can finish all in one post. Haha.

That's all for now. Ciao!